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Since my Wacom is still broken, all drawings are on hold until i have it back. (around next week probably)

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Interest check: I wrote so much shit lately, including new chapters of Asterion & Extras for my other writing project 'A thousand suns' - shall i upload it? 

2 deviants said Yes Upload it!
1 deviant said Make English translations and upload it!
1 deviant said I don't care about the written shit (Q.Q u dont?)
1 deviant said Get back into drawing dammit.
1 deviant said Wait, what?



Never. Trust. Anyone.

Journal Entry: Tue Feb 24, 2015, 5:11 AM
  • Mood: Disbelief
  • Listening to: Mirrors Edge OST
  • Reading: Book from an befriended Author
  • Watching: - No time for Fun -
  • Playing: - No time to play -
  • Eating: Instant Noodles
  • Drinking: Punica
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Even if it is your own family. 

My closest friends already know it: My Family is currently moving. 
The place is in the middle of nowhere, train connection sucks and i still don't know how i will be able to end Home after work since Busses don't drive in the most times. 
But hey, all that moving stuff is something i can live with.
I can even live with the fact that atm i don't have a fridge, a cooler, not even a chair in the house. That i live with a bed, a little table and a pc which now even has no internet. Oh, and a bag with clothing. 
What i can't live with is the fact, that i found a reason to never trust my parents again. 
I took this 1 year job for low money for a reason, because i wanted to prove me that i could be able to earn my money for studying. 
Since i don't trust myself in the case of money and i trusted my mum 1000 x more, i entrusted her 50%-60% of my earnings (150-160€) per month to save enough for going to uni next year without any big money troubles. 
Just to hear yesterday, that all my saved money got used already for paying things for the moving ...
... it just slipped out of my mums lips like 'Oh i forgot to tell you: I ate your yoghurt."

Next to the state of neverending pain and bruises in my body,loss of sleep through the moving (my brain level is constantly under a normal level ... but hey, won't last forever and sleep is for the weak anyways!) i feel loosing faith in my family.
After my Battle about even being allowed to study anyway, rejecting that my parents will pay my study loans because i wanted to proof myself that i could do it myself, always hearing how much of a 'money taker' i am (and i should search for better job), how useless studying is and ect pp ... i reached almost the half of what i would have needed to study - and lost all my saved money. Without being even told about it. 
I seriously think sometimes my parents do everything possible to sabotage my way to uni. But then i think it would be to much of my imagination which runs wild. 

Is there seriously something bad about going to uni? Is it really like a waste of time and should i really get just a normal job and stop dreaming of becoming something?
I only know one thing: That i don't know if my parents will me maybe give me back my money and that if not, my plans have a higher chance to get ruined because i won't be able to pay the study loans.
And that you should Never. Never. Never. Ever. Trust anybody. No matter who they are.
Never. Trust. Humans.
For special not in the case of money.

// End of thougths. 


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FireballStardraco Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2015
Happy Birthday, I hope it is a good one :).
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VampireBarons Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2015  Student General Artist
Happy Birthday! :D
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EINsamer-wANDERER Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Ich wünsche dir einen fröhliches neues Jahr.
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jureko Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
PLZ Wicket No 04 Merry Christmas PLZ Wicket No 02 
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Kumotogi Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
u alive bud?
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